This last week has been a little rough for Xander and me. Nothing really seems to be going our ways, and we really just haven't been getting along. Morning routines trying to get everything done and get out the door in time have been a complete disaster every morning, and have just been ending in yelling on my part and crying on his. And it has been over the simplest of things really. Like yesterday morning... The night before, we were eating dinner and Xander said, "This is the BEST dinner EVER! I want to have this for me lunch tomorrow!" Of course that made me happy, but I had to ask, 'are you SURE this is what you want for lunch? I'm going to make it, and you can't change your mind at that point. So you need to be sure that this is what you really want." His answer was that yes, he definitely wanted the leftovers for lunch. Welp, I'm not sure how I predicted this one (maybe because it's happened numerous times), but as soon as he woke up, he said, "I don't think I want that stuff for my lunch." I told him that wasn't an option and he had already decided on his lunch choice. He claimed that he said he MAYBE wanted that for lunch, and now he doesn't. UGH! So at that point, he wouldn't do anything at all because he was so upset about lunch. The clock was ticking and I was getting more and more annoyed at every passing second. Finally, I just couldn't take it anymore. There was a half opened container of processed/unhealthy chef boyar-puke in the fridge. That's what he wanted, and that's all it took for him to get his butt up and continue getting ready. No, I shouldn't have given in. Those canned foods are for when I didn't make dinner the night before that he could take for leftovers. But I didn't have anything else I could do.
Anyway, so that's just an example of one of the ways we haven't gotten along this week. Today I decided to turn things around until he left for the weekend to stay with his Grandma Jean. I was exhausted anyway, so I took most of the day off. I was sitting in bed just checking emails and whatnot when my little bug poked his head around my doorframe. "Hi Mama" his little voice said. And I decided today had to be a good day for us. He climbed into bed next to me and we snuggled for a little bit before he had to get dressed and eat breakfast before school. There wasn't any arguing about what to eat for breakfast or lunch. Today was park day at school, so he got a PB&J (his fav) anyway.
I took him to school and was planning on going back in a couple hours for a little program he was supposed to have, but that ended up getting cancelled. But I still met the kids over at the park for lunch and a little playtime. It was so fun to see him play with his friends. He really is becoming such a big kid, and I'm so happy to not see him involved in all the cliques that have already formed... in PRESCHOOL, mind you! He seems to be friendly with everyone, which is great. He did mostly play with his friend Ideen though. They played a lot of tag and other imaginary games that only kids understand.
I love that I made his day today. Ellie sitting next to him at lunch spotted me first and tapped Xander on the shoulder... "Xander, your mom's here!!" He turned around so fast with the biggest grin on his face. All the other kids were excited that I was there to see Xander too.
All in all, I'm so happy that today was a new day. This week as I've struggled with Xander, I've had to keep reminding myself that this moment is new. It's a chance to start all over. One minute Xander and I could be having a scream-fest, and really, who has the ability to fix things? I do. He could too, but he's only 4. I know better. I need to keep reminding myself of this, but it only takes a few seconds to take a breath and think of something funny or positive to say. That's all it takes for a 4 year old. You don't have to start over the next day or the next week. Make the change NOW. This applies to everything in life. Going to the gym, eating better, stop yelling at your kids, being more positive, etc. Change NOW. YOU have the power, and it is something that I do my absolute best to live by. Stop making excuses for why you have to wait until Monday morning or the New Year. Did you know that your life can be amazing NOW?! It's just that easy!
Well, I think it's time for some midday swimming. I brought Xander home early so we could have fun in the pool. Grandma's hopefully coming over to swim with us, and Tiff will be home soon and hopefully joining us as well! What a fun day today is. A much needed break from the stress at work!
So the lesson for today?? Anything in your life that you are unhappy with? Change it. Make a SMALL change (or big if it's feasible). Any sort of change to better your life. What are you waiting for? Make today a great day!