This last week has kind of been a roller coaster ride for me. As our plans to expand our family are getting closer and more real, we have realized that we have GOT to get our funding in line for this baby, because holy moly, IVF is not cheap! Contacting Medical Loan companies and feeling like we're getting the run-around. Worrying that we're just going to get denied everywhere. It's just starting to get to me. I mean, it's already unfair that my wife and I can't have a child together as it is. But on top of that, we also aren't able to adopt because we're a same-sex couple. And we also can't get insurance coverage for IVF treatments because as a same-sex couple, we're not ACTUALLY infertile. So what are we to do? Are we really going to be denied the right to raise our own child together? I know many would look at our situation and say that this is just a sign that same-sex relationships are wrong and that we aren't meant to make babies... But I refuse to take that as a reason. I know the love that my wife and I share, and I know that we are meant to raise a wee little one together. I know our love is meant to be carried on through a baby of our own. I just know it.
Every so often when I'm feeling down about the possibility of this whole thing NOT going through, I need a little trip to the baby store. So yesterday, we hopped in the car and headed to Babies R Us so we could get excited all over again. Ahhh, I just love it! We were looking at all the teeny tiny shoes, and Tiff told me she's just gonna eat up our little one's cute toes, and that just melted my heart. She's going to be such a great mom, and I can totally see her loving on our baby and eating its little feet and neck rolls. Having a baby with Tiff is going to make me fall even more in love with her.
The financial side of things is going to be rough. Honestly, I'm not sure where the money is going to come from. But somehow it will work out. I will not give into the idea that we are not meant to have a baby just because we are gay. You cannot put a price on our future child, and we will do whatever it takes to make it happen.